Deprived

(:: Hey thanks, guess Desmond meant well too(: Cares.

S.Pserby: Sure, no worries, i understand, thanks for being concern.

toby: Thanks dude.

desmond: Thanks, Perhaps so.

JAM: Guys, i know you guys meant well you know, but  not this way, i hope to handle my own r/s.

Mary: Hey sis, thanks alot! Guess we really need to drink to fantasy, reality kills.

Alan: Thanks((;

passing by: Thank you.

PSB: Yeah, i kind of regret too.

Girl Passer: Thanks anyway(:

passby: ...

ELGENE: Yeah, thanks know seriously, (:

Momo: Yeah): I misses you toos

Went down with Baobei and two of his friends to Yuen he's chalet.

Sat there see them crap :x

When off to Mac to get ice-cream.

Joel's on the phone with his girlf :DD

Melvin and Joel(:

They say Melvin look like Xiao jing teng :x

Don't know why he got the BabyMilo face (:

*Step angry*

Love baobei!

He's so cuteeeee<3

And my darling Hongxiang came to find me at downtown that day.

Parted with Joel they all and went back to Yishun.

Loves<33

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Cfgpsf xf fwfo hpu uphfuifs, zpx xbto'u mjlf uijt. Uiptf ebzt xfsf hpof.

J cbsfmz dpvme sfnfncfs ipx zpx xfse mbtu ujnf. Eje j usvtu uif xspoh nbo?

J sfbmmz dbo'u cfmjfwf xifo j offefe zpx uif nptu, zpx xbto'u uifsf gps nf. Xiz gbjm nf?

Till the calm sea came by, smooth sailing arrive.

How i wish i wasn't an attitude person.

How i wish i wasn't an attitude person.

How i wish i wasn't an attitude person.

How i wish i wasn't an attitude person.

How i wish i wasn't an attitude person.

Just how i wish we could stay side by side.

QQ, Mel, Jam.

For goodness sake.

If you guys are saying about my boyf.

I'm really sorry to warn that, you better stop.

Stop this stupid counselling for break ups things.

Stop saying about my boyf, because it upset me.

You guys are friends long enough to understand me.

Dont fail me also alrights?

I'll be fine, thanks for last night.

Its me i need to overcome, so i get better stuffs in life(:

Wanted to post about, the day that i went to Yuenhe's chalet.

Also the East coast post, but, i haven't done them.

And not gonna do them now.

Either my eyes or heart failed.

Failed totally.

To see or feel the right thing.

I realised, when i hold on to that something between us,

sadness engulfed the atmosphere.

It's because, i then wake up the idea,

and came to the conclusion of...

the promises are way up high.

Opps! It flew away...

I just received a message from a friend.

Here it goes...

" A 9 yr old girl = Dakshini, is in a critical stage,

suffering from BLOOD CANCER.

Her father needs 200k for operation.

All networks agreed to give 10 cents for each msg.

Pls forward tis sms NOW to at least 10 people.

Yes, sms now.

With ur kind heart, many good things will come back 2 ur life in return "

Exactly what he send me.

I mean like, its kind of bullshit.

Was thinking who started this thing.

I doubt its true you see.

If all the networks wanna do some charity work.

They could just donate money to the girl's dad for the operation.

What for agreed on 10 cents per message conditions.

What is this? I seriously don't understand.

People got nothing better to do?

Or just wanna see whos the kind soul.

Total waste of time.

Hmm hmm, last night i told daddy about my studies stuff.

Knew he will get so disappointed.

And the sense of guilt in me is so indescribable.

He said he can only make it to see the principle next week.

So have to callmy form teacher later on.

Oh ya. New job out in Maple today.

And mummy was so excited about it.

Okay, i know this sounds real stupid.

But i'm gonnatry out the new job.

It look cool!

Off the maple.

Bye!

Tags, replies

Xiao'en: Yeah*sob* *sob*

Elgene: You wait only, by the time i remember you dont step forget ah!

QQ: Wah, you so sexy, later my boyf see you run with you how?): Cannot cannot.

Boy.

Its things you don't have to understand.

You ain't over doing things.

You're not irritating and she don't think you are.

Its not so, thats why she didn't tell you about it.

Now you understand.

You're not wrong to cherish her when you know she might not be there for you when you wake up the next morning.

You are like what she said, foolish.

Foolish not because you did all those what she think as stupid.

But rather you're trying so hard to do the impossible, which became possible.

You shouldn't take that step.

God places obstacles and guess what? She never leave though she left.

Deep down inside, she really don't want to go.

But you didn't know, you're just the right one for her.

Though you can't give her what she want, the space and all.

You're still simply good enough for her.

Hmm hmm, gonna stay home today.

Got to do my study plan.

Haven't tell daddy about the parent meeting thing.

Really got to raise the matter upon him no matter what tonight.

Need to call my form teacher tomorrow.

And i'm still online here.

I'll start doing it later about four in the noon.

Think i really got to spend more time home.

I really think there's alot of interesting stuffs online.

Gonna surf the net(:

REPLAY ----> <3

I'm with you

Is anybody here i know, cause nothings going rights.

Its a darn cold night, trying to figure out this life

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly

Mary: Yeah sis, i believe you totally understand how i feel. Lets meet up again. Sorry for the delay of uploading the photos of eastcoast trip. Really will do it soon ya(: Love you sistar! Thanks for being there for me always.

Elgene: Woahs, you say one ah! I got the tag as evidence one hor!!!!!

angie: Really glad you take an effort to drop me tags and stuff(: <3 ya!

Woke up in the noon.

Had breakfast and been surfing the net till now.

I sure can face the computer for bloody hell long hours!

And i've been on the Fm 97.60

LOL, my life is really boring ya.

Gonna tell daddy about my studies stuff tonight.

And need to work out my study plan.

Should stop using comp tomorrow and get down to my study plan.

Hongxiang's coming find me now.

Need to rush my dinner down my throat and go meet him downstairs.

Couldn't him just come up???? HAHA

He cant stand my dogs!

Passerby: Agree! Thanks for encouraging(((:

passerby: Thanks there, i will(:

ELGENE:D -------> You arsehole uh, when free want fly come deliever me bbt?

joanne: Yeah, thanks, i will(:

angie: Hey cousinnnnnzxzx, thanks(: Really, this lil tag of yours really encouraged me(: Loves

JAM: See how, i'll try my best to stay in Christchurch.

Tiffany: Not really good); Yous?

Ashley: Sorry that i didn't attend the prayer meeting, promised to me more active with church(: Good to see you on Sunday, misses you guys!<3 Thanks Sp.

Momo: Imy girlf! <3333333 Text you when i top up my card.

Mary: Yeah, real soon! (:

QQ: LOL, buey zi dong one :x

mel: Fight your arse la. You think i so free?

Fel: Misses your G stringzxz~ LOL! Will meet you guys soon!

SHUTING: Sure mei(:

JAM: No wonder, thought you don't want me alrd?):

TEDDY: Sorry that day not free, can't go meet you all, wait for you come back then say okay?

Anyway, about few days back?

I just came to know that Willis went in.

Was so, shocked, as its kind of sudden.

Well, i misses him you see, he's been a great bro.

Can't wait to see him again))))))))):

And this few days, my thoughts ran fast.

This minute i might be in joy, and the next in total anger.

Wondering whats with me also.

Is this call moodswings? Or is it just me?

Small "lil" stuffs that i get so fucking pissed at.

Think i really got to change my attitude towards things.

Its really time for a BIG change in my life.

Lifestyle like sleeping early, doing what.

And even what i eat must be change.

I doesn't want to care much about other stuff now.

Will post about a trip down to East coast with Mary and friends,

some photos at church just now.

(I really misses the church so bloody much)

Okay, back to recently, some days been with Hongxiang.

Bee came to find me the day before yesterday,

had a nice chat and enjoyable time with her.

We sure are meeting up again real soon.

My aunt came to find me few days back,

talked to me and she managed to knock some sense into me.

It wasn't a total pleasant Sunday.

Was kind of pissed of by Hongxiang.

I really wanted and hell hoping he will attend church with me.

But he's reluctant to and of course, didn't.

And i was not only disappointed, i was super disappointed.

So i was thinking about this matter on my way to church.

I remembered that there was this guy, (I couldn't remember who)

He had an attitude freak girlf and he was the bloody hell nice idiot.

I asked him, "How can you stand such a girlf?!"

He replied, "Why not? I'm the one who chose my girlf, therefore, i can't blame her"

Upon remembering that, i chilled alot, not as mad as earlier on.

As, its me who accepted my own boyf.

I made the decision, so i bear what i have to.

Text him and asked if he could meet me after my church.

Well, he was busy so i went Causeway with my church mates after church.

Had fun, went to mini bits to find Babystacey.

So good to see her(:

And i bought my hair accessories (:D)

Rented a movie, "My bloody valentine".

Headed to Caleb's place and catch the movie.

In time to bid goodbye to Joshua before he left the house.

That show is crap, but not that bad either.

Chat and stuffs, bus home with Erica.

Couldn't sleep, don't know why.

And its was Pastor day and Baobei's birthday, (15 Nov)

Really thank my pastor for being my pastor (Sounds weird :x)

He's really a nice man, humble and had lots of patience.

Without him, his family, i wouldn't be a child of God today.

And Baobei, Happybirthday.

A year older, and i'm really glad you're so happy when you call me((:

Been so long since i know you're so happy.

Glad you got a new good girlf (:D)

So happy for you know?

Sorry i didn't make it to meet you, but i'll make it up to you.

Love you so much, muacks!<3

Went to school with mummy to parent meeting.

Quite a long one.

I kept quiet most of the time.

My principle does the talking.

Anyway, nothing much to say isn't it?

She have alrd decided, and asked me to find another school.

Naive me thinking that to swallow what she say will let the matter rest.

But, hmm hmm, to the end of me she wanna see.

So, i ain't anyone with authorities.

Never belittle that authorities, you call the shots when you have that.

Been in the office, hearing her out.

She makes sense, she makes sense not.

After the meeting, my form teacher had a chat with me and my mum.

Thats it, Mr Yap is definitely a better person to talk to.

Because in that office, no matter what you say,

It wont be acknowledge, not because it doesn't make sense.

But because, its not a need to be known and bothered.

So keeping shut is the best way out.

And she said i was prideful and show no reaction when i hear her asking me to transfer.

When i saw my mum crying to let her daughter have a school to study.

I spoke, i mentioned, what ever i say now is useless, thats why i kept shut.

Try to explain myself, and i was accused of pushing the blame.

Isn't it true, i kept quiet trying to humble down and let my principle lecture.

And keeping quiet is prideful.

Well, i never know that till today.

I think, there's not a need to say too much, what i need was a chance back to school.

And prove it, that i'm gonna study, and change.

But at this point of time, talking speaks louder than action?

I'm really confused.

She bite on her sentence, saying i confirmed won't change.

Maybe, to her i really can't turned back and change.

Whats the point when everythings alrd so clearly said

Only to pray and see how now...

Next week is the last week for extra classes.

Then i really need to look for a job!

I spending too much than i have.

Sigh, facing financial crisis at fifteen!

SHUTING: You holiday alrd rights? Hows your results? Yesh, will meet you soon, loved<3

Mary: Yesh sis, meet me soon, so hows yun long? Better meet me la! We go chill.

dalian: Ohs okay(:

TEDDY: Never meet James? You still working rights? When going back?

boy: Thanks.

Xinyi: Thanks sweet(:

mel: Thinking of you luh, when coming back? Go so long, dont need come back alrd ah????

ahwen: Thanks for the concern(: Yea(:

Marilyn: What? That few days off.

X.jackie: Step step step only uh! Anyhow ah!

Fel: You pcb kpkb only. That day just saw you at Sk what! You come Woodlands find me la!

JAM: Soon! You still running the pub?? Miss you!

Cammie: Dont step one want whack me la. I know you bu she de one :x

QQ: Where got you xia lan!

Cheryl: Ohs seen(((:

31st October 2009

Its Halloween! Was with Hongxiang, Perry, Alvin and a few of their friends.

Supposed to head down to Night Safari.

But its pouring heavily, and the tickets were sure sold out.

As even the online ones were all sold.

Disappointed, train down to Vivo, slacked there.

And headed to Images of Singapore.

The both of them teamed and super entertaining.

Get what i mean? :x

Perry, Alvin and the big eyes bride(:

Hongxiang, me and the bride((:

Another entertaining one :D

*LMAO*

Hongxiang, Joshua, *Ah piao*, Alvin and Perry.

Blood doctor(:

The nurse and Dr,

This one darn cock.

Perry offering the joke-stick  

Joshua they all disturbing that guy.

As Joshua and friends keep saying he the tombstone belongs to that guys father.

Saying his father die and stuffs.

And he kept glaring at them.

Looking at them i also want get piercing at my cheek!!

Mr.Toh!!

On the bus back home.

Perry sleeping soundly :x

Tiring day!

Do what makes you happy,

Be with who makes you smile,

Laugh as much as you breathe,

Love as long as you live.